I really enjoyed tonight. I really enjoyed all of today, as a matter of fact. It really was such a fine day. Work was busy, and maybe for the very first time, walking around, I felt like this is my office, this is my floor. I can initiate a conversation, I can approach that person, I can offer a smile. Walking back from my lunch break in the breeze of century city, I just thought I’m so thankful to be single now, it’s so easy for me to covet and desire that relationship and romance and belonging to a guy, but I’m really in a good place. I feel like I’m starting, just starting to let go of him and embrace this new life. Like my toes are sampling the water and I absolutely cannot wait until I am ready to just dive all the way in!
The best part of today was after work– driving straight to 3rd street promenade to meet up Hannah and Cat who came to visit =) Shopped for a bit first, just at urban but they had SUCH good deals. I bought 2 sundresses. I love dresses. Then afterwards we went to a margarita bar, I don’t even know the name of the restaurant, but you know one of those typical cabana bars with the straw and stringed colored lanterns for decor. It was really so much fun, drinking margaritas, eating tres queso nachos (three cheese nachos), and steak fries in more cheese. soo fatty, soo delicious and just talking about everything and anything, from love and hurts and sex to present and futures. I really love that kind of night, I feel like I’m actually living life. Stepping out of the cabana onto the promenade, I’m filled with such a sense of satisfaction. The air is so sweet as different street musicians liven up each corner and even my legs are given a good kick with the sharp breeze.
In moments like these, I feel so happy to be alive and with my girls, I feel like yeah this is what it’s like to be in my 20’s. This is what makes being young and single great and why I’m not so bad off because of it. Live it up Shaina. I felt so sex and the city-esque, and really aside from the romps and outrageous fashion the four girls are known for, the show sticks because we all want that– a sense of being in charge, of enjoying, of conquering, of living. And so tonight, I felt so sex and the city.
Just me, and God, and a whole city to explore, to impact, to overturn.
I wouldn’t have been able to say that a week or two ago, hence the absence of posts. So I am glad, I am glad because I think this season is really for me to learn to love myself again, and learn to love where I am. Today was a good start.